cover your face and we'll pretend

it's early early thursday morning. i know i didn't post yesterday. it was a crappy day.

we did have some good company around noon.

after that, just badness. it got warm and sticky. one of our dogs got loose. ruined my day. couldn't get to the grocery store. couldn't draw. couldn't read. i don't like being stresed like that. couldn't even be alone for a split second. penny was a little monster as soon as the sun set. i didn't blog and only managed a single sentance in my journal. i got woken up in the middle of the night. the list goes on. i didn't get anything accomplished and i enjoyed nothing. all i wanted was to get something done and have a cup of tea. i didn't even get tea.

but...

jeffree star myspaced me tonight. it kinda makes up for it all.



title from killing lights

there's ladders and snakes and we've all made mistakes

i started a new project. i know i have so many that i'm working on, but it's the only way i keep from being bored. i used a pen instead of a knife on my vinyl cutter to draw out a big big coloring book-like outline of jade playing his acoustic guitar. i'm going to fill in the shading with bits of printed paper cut from a magazine. i'm already gluey-sticky, and i barely started.

penny is painting another picture today. "yeah, you jealous" she said last time. she knows i think she paints better than i do.

we're both up here in the studio, working and dancing all silly to hunter revenge. i'm imagining jon (who looks just like hunter in the most uncanny way) dancing around singing in that prince-like voice... "'lectric....lover.... got-ta got-ta turn you on!" i'm laughing and loving it. i hope he reads this.

hehe. penny is singing, too. "who's gonna love you now?"

check it out at www.myspace.com/hunterrevenge

title lyrics from hunter revenge's who's gonna love you now?

i will paint you in silver, i will wrap you in cold

sealion

acrylic. i painted this sometime in 2001 or 2002, i don't remember. the photo doesn't do it justice, doesn't show how eerie it is and how he really pops out. it's always fun to go dig it out and look at it. one of these days i'll have it framed.

i'm listening to jamiroquai. i'm feelin' dancey. it's all blur's fault.

joshua is over in the toledo area taking a pipe welding certification test. i hope he's staying relaxed (of all things), because i already know he's doing well.

i'm feeling inspired and motivated today. i wonder what i'll do. i already hung out some wash. it's a beautiful day.

title lyrics taken from afi's silver and cold.

if you show me heaven i will meet you there

today, penny and i enjoyed a nice lunch at olive garden. we shared a plate of capellini pomodoro. delicious. it was a baby shower for niki, and meg also joined us along with some other friends/coworkers from kasper. niki's having a little boy. here is a photo that penny so kindly (and excitedly) took for us. niki is in the lower right corner. can you find the two other pregnant girls?

meg went with penny and i to kohl's after lunch. i found hello kitty perfume! and i loooove it. i might have to go back and get some. it's a lot like the pink sugar perfume that i loved. go smell some for me.

i just offered joshua an apple or some water... and i said "waahhter." mike, you're right. i have an awful accent. jeesh.

title lyrics taken from blaqk audio's stiff kittens.

13 hours

i wanted to share this little stream of thought from Chad Hannah:

13 Hours

13 hours I sat here trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life
13 hours I worried and fidgeted and squirmed and compiled and endless amounts of adjectives
and you know what?
after those 13 hours it dawned on me
It doesnt matter what I do
I have to wait in line like everyone else
I cant just take my life and run with it
there are forms
there are files
there are people ahead of me trying to do exactly the same thing

Why does it matter what you do in life if everyone else has to do the same thing?

I believe that what you should really try to accomplish in life is....
Figuring out a way to do what you want
to go around this system without breaking any rules
people have done it
why cant I?

what did you do on your last day?

on jamie's last day in norwalk, we ran a couple errands that included borrowing a 'sprinkles' costume from coldstone, getting gas, and playing in the floodwaters near my house. i like youtube.com.

awww....smith plushie inside joke. "uhhhmm...prolly when i was-"

i just smeared my eyeliner with a hardcore eye-rub. *sigh*

in the begining

now, here i've gone and started myself a real blog. i used my myspace blog for artwork posts, which i have given up on. i used buzznet for weekly journals. i think this will be good.

i have been chewing on the idea of publishing a zine. where i live, this isn't really the place, but i figure, oh well, i'll do what i want. this blog looks like something just right. i'll give it a try and if i have something zine worthy, i'll move along. (somehow, i doubt it. this might just be perfect).

in this blog, i will post my journals, thoughts, artwork, photos and little scraps of my life. i'm looking forward to it.

chad, you are good to me. thanks.