we don't question what we've become

i've been busy landscaping and arting and reading. much to do. listening to lords of acid, and it's not majorly inspirational. it is cloudy out, and i'm in a damp mood. this must be remedied. however, i am a bit excited about zombies in columbus.



title: nofx - we march to the beat of an indifferent drum

immune to your consultations

yay! i found my lost pencil!

i'm feeling like i need to change my studio office around again. it's still not perfect. also, i think i may curl my hair for work today. i've never done that before. once more, things are changing and starting to fall into place again.

there is much to look forward to. next week is vacation with nicole for her birthday! that will bring good stories to tell, and hopefully lots of photos. let's hope i remember everything i need to pack. i need more than this snow-white tan.



title: david bowie - changes

i want to ride my bicycle

i have an update on the troubadour tetra set! i worked on adam a bit at work yesterday. i brought him again today, but it's 8 o'clock now, and i doubt i'll have time before i leave to work on him. i don't have a scan here, but i swear i posted one on my photobucket. well, crap. i'll do it later. last night i did a quick sketch of a zombie, so i suppose i can post her instead. again, i'm sure jen would appreciate this.

yesterday was mother's day, and i worked. i got the cutest little plaster mold of penny's hand. she and joshua met me after work and took me out for dinner to applebee's. their menu is very veg-unkind, and i ended up with a boring veggie burger that i'm almost sure wasn't vegan.

today, i put in my two weeks notice at kasper. i will no longer be their receptionist ninja. i will be working strictly for myself and freelance. [commissions welcome! contact me!]

[note to self: acceptance letters to hogwarts community college]

title: queen - bicycle race

you don't need one word to talk to me

a few things:

- joshua may not be able to come home until october, unless there are special circumstances

- retailtherapy and techtherapy *nerds*

- dinner with meg

- my good laptop needs repaired

- i wanna arts. too lazy today

- i email myself shopping lists and to do lists

- i want warm and sunny

- feeling semi-accomplished today

and

- ZOMBIE PINKIE PIE! [haha, it's old, for jason by penny]

title: cibo matto - king of silence

you can't always get what you want

joshua is fighting with me, more or less, and i'm trying not to fight back. i'm still losing. i hate sounding emo, but i'm feeling numb. so i'm going to self-medicate by posting an old watercolor i did back in high school.

here's some penguin love, and i dedicate this to jen.

relax.
deep breaths.
aromatherapy.
carrietherapy.
gratefulness.

i really just want to yell at him and make him see that i'm not worthless and it hurts me that he's mad at me. i'm over it, and i'm not being selfish by choosing to let it go. i wish he would see that although i'm far from perfect, i am good enough. count your blessings and don't dwell on the petty things. xanax, i wish you were here.

for the honor of love

psh... honor? love? right now that sounds like a load of crap to me. getting over it, though.

just got back from kentucky, and it was a good visit except for this morning. the weather was beautiful and we had a no-pressure evening to relax.

here is another old assignment: number 5.

i'm bringing my watercolors to work today. i hope i don't get in trouble.




title: she-ra theme song... it's stuck in my head.

i could not get enough

here is assignment 4 from last month, for you to enjoy. for carrie.

i scanned some pages out of some old old sketchbooks, and i think i'll be posting those to deviantart.com when i get the time.

i'm off to kentucky on a last minute run. i'll bring little black.

"water goes over a dam and under a bridge, you blabbering school boy."

title: under the bridge - red hot chili peppers

whatever you think of me

how to win a street fight

this was rather disappointing. i was ready for an article on ass-kicking. pshhh. i'm going to recommend my little brother Chris for further and better 'if you're ever getting attacked...' tips, tricks and information. i'm sure he's on myspace somewhere. watch me not link you.

i want to go home and paint. hopefully i can do some drawing here.

i'm setting up a myspace for my dad's band. this makes me feel slightly silly.

oh yeah...
there is a show (not my dad's band) on friday night at the underground, and you all should come out. mmyes.



title: new order - as it is when it was

time to apply your magic touch

i started outlines for a series of watercolors yesterday.

i started painting today, and really, that's all i've done besides take a shower. i've got pandora.com hooked up to the big amp, and i'm working away. i'm mostly satisfied with the first piece, and i hope i finish them all soon. i have to play receptionist tonight, and i cannot take them with me. maybe i'll try, though!

here is a photo of the progress, and a couple links to additional photos of 3 of the set:

draft outlines

progress

title: boyfriendgirlfriend - infatuation dot com

you're older than you've ever been

and now you're even older, and now you're even older, and now you're even older. you're older than you've ever been and now you're older, still. time is marching on, and time, is still marching on!

how did i forget to post this? we are the official mascot of alltel in norwalk. the allel ninjas!

mah leg has fallen asleep, my throat is tight with frustration at something i have no control over, and i should sleep now. maybe a bit of reading. yes. but she keeps popping up on my screen. deep breaths. i can handle this.



title: they could be heroes

you savor the flavor

i just found this crappy photo and thought it was funny, for some reason.

NOT STEAK.

title: the smiths - meat is murder

on the way

today is pennigan's birtheve! we're having a small get together here at our home for the celebration of her 4th birthday, which is tomorrow.

i found this she-ra dvd set at the record store, and with her being an avid he-man fan already, thought she might like this!

i'm praying she doesn't get any loud obnoxious toys. jen and i had this conversation yesterday, and we concluded that our girls like movies, clothes, drawing and games more than the toys they get and forget about.

...and everything seems to be made overseas anymore. give penny a nice recycled, made in usa sketchpad, and she's thrilled.

now we blast the music and clean and prepare for par-tay!

title: 6 to 8 - afi

take your canvas bags

to the supermarket!
tim minchin and a bit of green humor: watch
eyeliner! rawr! carrie! rawr!


and i bought a new cd today, well, a used but new to me cd...
blue sunshine by the gloves
i hope its great

...but not as much as you, you see

GARRRRRRRARRR.
suqking technology.

that is all.

ay, pistolero!

i've done a bit of extreming in the last day and a half. yesterday morning, joshua, pen and i.. and maddie... we all packed up and drove down to kentucky. everyone rode in the big truck pulling the camper but me. i was driving the little lunchbox car. penny and i got to meet andy and robin, joshua's neighbors. they are lovely people, and they have a nice dog, lady bird. we stayed the night in the camper with joshua, then penny and i drove back in the big truck. i had to work today and i feel like i've done nothing but sit. well, except for that crazy impulsive cleaning that i did in the basement inbetween driving and work.

as far as my artwork--i have been sketching, but i haven't had a chance to get photos/scans, and i've also started another piece of digital work. it's for jen, and it involves zombies.



title: pistolero - juno reactor